nichplaysjazz

I'm not the kind of person who will go around and try to start a life changing conversation neither am i the kind who likes to update about my daily life so yet the LJ can be rather random at times, the sentences dont flow very well, but i dont look to find a spot to log all my opinions about things i see, i feel and not alot about i heard ( because i believe everytime a story have been passed down, it changes even the slightest)

I've struck by brian, my camp mate with this sentence, well, it may sound very very insignificant to many, it goes " the only way to excel in GP is to an opinion in anything".

I asked myself, "when is the last time i actually had an opinion about something?" Mind you, there's a big big difference of having an opinion and mindless rant or gossip. I shall not go into the definition. Why am i writing about this?

Because it is very important to have an opinion, an idea because without having them you are basically just following orders, u listen, digest and execute, instead of listen, digest, ANALYSE and execute.

Well, i'm very bad at expressing myself, i will just end my very poor attempt of starting a life changing conversation (laughs) but maybe you can try to have an opinion in everything and see what's the result

If you set a mind in doing something, and you arent focusing on it, be it giving yourself too many reasons or you just cant bear step out of the comfort zone u have long established, the very fact is - there can only be one genuine reason and that is procrastination. Hence the subject title.

Woo, crapz. i forgot the existence of this place again. I wont go into updating my life, because when that's no news it means good news =) A rather hard to understand logic of mine again, We should be contented of what we have, and not expecting and expecting good things to happen. In short, if u expect something good to happen, please work for it.

Speaking of which, NS has taught me a very valuable lesson, that is we really have no time to be dysfunctional and stagnant, and looking back at my life be4 ns, i could have done more things at the period, instead of stoning and slacking, and thought that i'm really making use of my time in actual fact, youth is slowly slipping away, i feel old and underachieving to be honest, thats why i get very irritated when i see my friends who are much younger than me, slacking their life off.

In actual fact, this is the real world, constantly racing against time, meeting datelines, worrying about bills unpaid and definitely which alot will agree, stroking ur boss' ego. And above all, u hate your job. When this happens, i definitely wont wanna look back and think about why didnt i work harder when i was younger.

In conclusion, i really need to work doubly harder.

An event to remember. I just passed my class 2b traffic police test, which means i'm a qualified rider already(like finally). Enrolled on feb 08 passed on mar 08. To look at things on a more gloomy side, riding on the road makes a person more vulnerable to dangers and other people's carelessness but seriously, the feeling u get from riding a bike can never be compared to anything else. Not even driving a convertible car haha.

It's like the 3rd time i dreamt of a 1957 Fender stratocaster, once was a sunburst and twice was a black with black pickguard, and yes it's not a NOS or RELIC or CLOSET finish or reissue or MIJ or MIM, it's an authetic vintage 1957 Fender Stratocaster dont ask me why is it like gilmour's if a claim that it's from 57'. I mean i dream of the weirdest dreams, dating korean pop star and conversing with them in korean and stuffs.

I think i'm probably thinking of a stratocaster too much, before i have the money to buy an AUTHETIC 57 stratocaster i need to get a good workhorse 1st.

I'm sorry for the technical details i've typed in this entry, to those who knows nuts about guitar. just conclude that yah i'm a weirdo who always have the weirdest dreams. To tell you the truth, that's one very good reason why i enjoy sleeping because i get to see different stories and the best part is most of the it's in my perspective.

Right, so here goes my little entry about dreams and dreaming them, I hope everyone of you many many happy and (wet) dreams ahead haha.

Btw, if any of you wanna make my dream come true, pls visit this website =)

http://www.strato-crazy.com/StockListPreCBSNew.htm

and for those who dont know how a stratocaster looks like (which i suspect u probably live in mars, because they dont have rock bands like deep purple and pink floyd)

http://www.strato-crazy.com/VG1161.htm

Tiring week. Slept like 18 hours for 5 days Zzzzz. There are 2 interns that have been attached to my branch, I'm happy because i feel less detached from the outside world compared to me been the only NSF of my branch. Not that, everyone there is not nice, i just feel like the clerks tgt with me are like in place totally out of this world, almost everyone we mingle with have got something to do with the force, whether is it DXOS, officers etc etc etc. Some of them, have already adapted to the regimentation, despite us we are detached from the outside world, to function as assistants in that world of regimentation. Well, of course been a clerk what's there for us to complain? Still, Humans reacts to uncertainties and regimentation, i once reacted violently upon it and even the thought of it. i wouldnt say i'm getting use to it, i will say i've already make myself numb. I feel the responsibility to work and help so that i think less about the regimentation and detachment i am in.

And i would like to tell ppl, if u wanna sign on because of the money, pls reconsider. So many factors to think about, the stress, regimentation, the detachment etc.

I've been reading quite alot recently, after i've been posted to my new branch, I have more freedom to read and do my own stuffs.

I've been thinking about Norwegian wood alot recently. Personally, it seems like a normal love story alittle twisted though, Toru and Naoko falling in love with each other but yet unable to walk out of the shadow of Kizuki's death. Like many japanese writers, Haruki made his characters more humane, they have desire and feelings and of course they feel very much lonely. Well, humans are innately dependent creatures, we somehow or another want to cling to someone or depend on someone regardless how strong one's personality is.

I've been thinking what if, other than love they are feeling, Toru and Naoko are somehow lonely, both of them have something in common, they have probably no one else except Kizuki himself and one day, that connection just snap and they try so hard to stay connected, fighting loneliness and they engage physically for that warmth of a friend/boyfriend you have lost and also to curb that desire. Or what if, it isnt even love they are feeling. I dont know if anyone of you understands what i'm saying but, have u ever tried very very hard to fight loneliness and engage in a r/s?

And then, all the casual sex been mentioned in the book, how low is our moral decreasing? If you have read Norwegian Wood, please tell me your point of view. It's especially the ending, that makes me that the story is about lonely hearts seeking consoles and not love.

Some more, Norwegian Wood is not a very difficult novel to understand but it definitely kept me thinking about the characters

Toru to midori, toru to naoko, toru to reiko

I was on long leave(+plus) for last week to prepare and sit for my TP test but i failed. Sigh, i was quite disturbed by it though i even had nightmares of myself failing and failing tp, can you imagine how traumatised i was ? hahaha, Anyway, congrats to michelle and teck xiang for passing their test on their 1st attempt, now i'm starting to admire such people more.

Anyway, it made realised something. Somehow, i always learn things through the hard hard way whether is it playing a game, learning how to play the guitar, learning music or photography now even getting a 2B license. It's probably due to the fact that i have short attention span or i just cant seem to get knowledge and instructions into my head.

Anyway, during this long break, i watch Definitely,Maybe ,Dark knight and Shawshank's Redemption the 2nd time. And i was actually thinking of what Red from Shawshank said. He said that you stay in a prison for too long, you get instituitionalised corresponding to that i was thinking of what Kamlesh said about ORD-ing. It's like u migrating from a small prison to a bigger prison. Well, i guess it's time i should prepare for the future

Anyway, above mentioned are excellent movies recommended by me haha.

*p.s i still need help in uploading large amount of photos

I gave up trying to post photos on my blog haha... Anyone please suggest a reliable online storage for my photos.

I've been fully exploited as a slave hahaha, i absolutely think that the auntie u buy your Sausage Mcmuffin from gets a higher than me. Still, i rather be underpaid then sleeping in the jungle haha.

woo, it had been 6 mths since i last updated my blog hahaha. Despite the long absence, i'm utmost grateful to those who have kept the link to my live journal in their own blogs =) I've not forsaken this blog, it's just not my style to type out my thoughts and pin it up own a virtual notice board for everyone to see, i've once mentioned that the concept is at its utmost irony.

Let's take livejournal as an example. IMO, journal is a record of events/instances/thoughts chronically which to me is rather personal, then u will ask me back why am i using livejournal. I can tell u that, everyone who blogs have already start recording his thoughts and etc selectively already. So yap, i'm writing down this journal selectively.
*(and the last thing i need is some guy to correct me of my definition of journal, you can keep it to yourself because i'm really not interested)*



Anyway, i'm going to upload some photos that i took in hongkong and japan. Yes they are not tourist-sy so u wont see any photos of myself grinning and *insert any name of tourist hotspot* as the background, it's not really my style. The fact that, i'm not a completely educated photographer makes me an unorthodox photograher(if i'm proficient enough to be one)

I was blew away by Dark Side Of The Moon. Well, to be able to comprehend the concept of the album is to listen to it from the beginning to the end without stopping or skipping which obviously i didnt because i way tooooooo impatient to do so hahaha. Actually, i did once but it didnt have much impact on me but so how it kinda struck so hard that i couldnt seem to get it off me. Everytime i plug into my psp, i just wanna finish the whole album without stopping, It's just impressive how could people produce such an album like 41 years ago, with all the atmostpheric effect and all that arrangement.

I kinda think that they are trying to portrait life from the beginning to the very very end. e.g Breathe is about new born , On The Run/Time is talking about how humans always racing against time or how time have been against us and how some of us just waste time yet when we grow older and try to achieve something is just an act of desperation , Great Gig In The Sky feels so depressed and surreal , Money definitely reflects on Capitalism, Us and Them tells us about fate and how there is no control in events sometimes no matter how different or similar we are. Ok, these are just my own interpretation. I remembered a fried who once told me about he felt the album is about how humans could lead to their own destruction.

And i really like David Gilmour's playing, it's like every note he picks it really comes from his heart, ok i'm lacking of vocabulary again please check this album out. 41 years after the album was produced and still there's someone talking about it really means something doesnt it

And could a kind hearted soul please buy me the Dark Side Of The Moon vinyl?

Meme #1
List seven songs you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're not any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now, shaping your spring. Post these instructions in your LJ along with your 7 songs. Then tag 7 other people to see what they're listening to.

1. Arashi No Saxophone(Iori Yagami's Theme) - Neo Geo Performance Group
2. Raize - Inoran
3. Arashi No Saxophone 2 (Iori Yagami's Theme) - Neo Geo Performance Group
4. Hotel California - Eagles
5. Street Fighter III Third Strike Dudley's Theme Blow Your Mind - Unknown
6. Sprit - Inoran
7 She will be loved - Maroon 5

Meme #2
SEVEN THINGS THAT SCARE YOU

-Lost any of my senses
-Not earning any money as a musician
-Where will i go after Death
-End of the world
-lost any of my love ones
-not been able to play guitar
-die in utmost pain

SEVEN THINGS YOU LIKE THE MOST

- Rebecca =)
- My guitar
- Basic Tees
- My jeans
- Music
- Practising
- Hair

SEVEN RANDOM FACTS ABOUT YOU

- I have to pee twice after i drink a can of drink because i have a small bladder
- I love simpsons and i think Marge Simpson will make a wonderful wife
- I tilt my head to my left alot
- I wanna do an afro if my hair were thicker
- I cannot fall asleep lying flat facing the ceiling, i have to turn to the right or left
- I used to have bloody big eyes when i was young.
- I have hair on the sole of my feet (ok it's not true, i cant think of anymore)

SEVEN THINGS YOU PLAN TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE

- Have sex in a plane, a ferris wheel or on the shore of Maldives Beach with someone i love alot
- Perform Shine On You Crazy Diamond
- ride a motorbike at a speed of 200km/h
- Flim a movie
- Living the dream and act like a rock and roll star for at least on
- Be able to play the guitar very well
- Be a successful music producer

SEVEN THINGS YOU CAN DO
- I can eat beancurd everyday and wont get sick of it
- Drink coke and eat nothing for 2 days
- play guitar fairly well
- eat sleep and shit and do nothing everyday haha who cant
- shop alot
- watch like 3 movies a day
- control the tv remote with my foot

SEVEN THINGS YOU CAN’T DO
- write with my left hand
- lick my elbow
- blowjob to myself
- multi task well
- cant really recite the 9x9 multipier we learnt in primary school
- cant read very fast
- smash my guitar

SEVEN THINGS THAT ATTRACT YOU TO THE OPPOSITE SEX
- Smile
- personality
- Hair
- dress sense
- charisma
- bum and legs
- eyes

SEVEN THINGS YOU SAY THE MOST

- Right?
- Huh?
- Baby....
- What The Fuck?
- Oh My God...
- Stupid Sia
- Hahaha

SEVEN CELEB CRUSHES

- Inoran, Sugizo or Luna Sea as a whole haha
- Cheer Chen
- Maki Horikita
- David Gilmour
- Jimmy Page
- Batman/Bruce Wayne (ok doesnt count as a celeb haha)
- Beatrice Kiddo/The Bride ( Ok doesnt count as too haha)

As a symbol, i can be indestructible.

Can you believe that the V For Vendetta promo poster with this quote on it is actually banned in singapore and lots of the countries? Seriously, i feel that the flim is not at all promoting Anarchism but more like shedding some light on to People, telling them what politics is like and should be like especially when democratic is so fabricated right now we do need some reminder that we can let the government slice away our freedom and monopolised us in any way. Yeah, i truly suck when it comes to writing so please watch the movie to understand more especially if u are doing your liability for the country.

It had been 9 weeks since i last updated. Well, it's only til recently that i realised that there's Special one who had been reading my blog regularly haha. I feel so honoured that You are so concerned of all the rubbish i would like to type. =) *Big Big Big Hugs to you*

Anyway, back to V for Vendetta. It is by far the best movie i have ever seen so anyone who havent watch it please please do so.

After so long, and i'm back to updating my livejournal. Lots of things happened i just dont want to share it with anyone of u out there, i dont see the point seriously. Maybe just summarise, after 23 years of living in this world, i'm finally on the verge of breaking down.

Some random self portraits

I'm sitting in front of my computer table,half naked and with my wet hair dripping water all over my body, i'm not exactly sure what gave me the sudden span to log on to livejournal and post an entry.

It's raining, and it always have to just when i'm about to leave my house, I seriously love the rain and cold weather but not when it hinders me of my plan. Not that i'm a psycho who likes my hair to be dripping wet but somehow i'm just gonna miss this feeling after i enlist. For those who thinks that i'm just neurotic about shaving my head, i just wanna tell u all these u dont know what your crown of tresses represent to me it symbolise freedom and shaving it off means losing freedom. Nevermind me i'm just having pre-NS syndromes.

Sometimes i cant stand myself yakking so much about my hair but well, it's just the only feature on me that is good.

And yeah, rain is stopping.

Can someone teach me how to make my lj(Livejournal i know what u dirty bastards are thinking) look nice? It had been *like this* for 2 years already

For those who dont know, I'm actually very into tatoos especially the japanese traditional kind (Yah those u see on yakuza's body) and since i really like flowers and cherry blossoms i thought of tatooing cherry blossoms on my arm, like a whole sleeve kind, but well, i do have the concept but i cant seem to draw it out =.= and i really really need help in it.

Strangely, though i'm into beautiful tatoos, i dont really fancy other forms of body modification like piercing, etching or implanting metal studs into your skin, i actually find it rather scary.

8 days more to NS, the only i really hope to achieve is to learn something through this process so that it wont be a waste of time like say take up a part time diploma or whatever get myself more involved in music and i'm really looking forward to the day i'm going to leave singapore go abroad to study. To me other than good friends and family there isnt anything much i cant bear to leave behind. Personally, i have no strong feeling or attachment to singapore.

And seriously, i had never seen myself in crew cut be4 so it's gonna be a breakthrough but i doubt i will look good without my hair besides it have always been something people recognise me of. And i swear i am never going to cut my hair after my NS.

And to Ah Kang who is reading, i DO update my journal just not that often because everyday is monotonous to me so dont think of removing my link out of your blog! =D